Hi,
It's almost 11:00 on Christmas Eve....and I hope you are all having a very merry Christmas this year. It is the time of year when we remember that God--the Creator of all that exists, and of each one of us--gave up all that He had in order to become a man. Jesus, the Alpha and Omega, by whom all things have their being, sacrificed so much in order to humble Himself so that we could be reconciled to Him.
We had an ultrasound yesterday of our little new addition....and I couldn't help but be reminded that God became a little 18 week baby like the one I saw on the screen yesterday! It's just mind-boggling if you think of it for only a little while....hopefully it is also soul-boggling (if that is a word), unto repentance and gratefulness for His love....no greater love has one than that he lay down his life for a friend.....and He lay down everything over and over again, for us!
But that's not what I was going to write about.....I was going to write about how Christmas is such a time of expectations. We want things to go a certain way, the food to taste just right, the people to arrive as scheduled, the kids to be thankful for their gifts and to be especially good, the house to stay clean, the family/relatives to get along....etc....whatever the expectations, I think we mostly all have plenty of them around this time of year....at least I know I do.
Well, this Christmas has not gone according to plan so far. We begin celebrating on Christmas Eve morning, which was this morning....when Anthony woke up with a swollen elbow that required him to head to the Emergency Room....instead of help me with the kids while I cooked as planned.
Problem #1 - strangely swollen elbow and a trip to the ER.
Problem #2 - A lot of cooking to do, and only one grown up in the house
Well, thankfully, as I was waking up this morning I prayed, "Lord, please just give me the grace that you know I'll need for whatever happens today--and please help me to have the heart of Mary while I know there's a lot of Martha's work to do." (if you know the story of Mary and Martha you'll know what this prayer meant).
The rest of the day was just a series of things that didn't go quite the way we expected. Anthony came home from the ER with a diagnosis of Bursitis....more to come on that....
While pouring the cupcake batter into the papers for Jesus' Birthday celebration, One of the kids accidently kicked over the whole pan onto the floor. So we started over.....
Essie got a fat lip because she tripped and hit her face on a corner.....
The 3 batches worth of dough for the bread dumplings didn't rise...and they ended up pretty hard.....requiring that we make more batches....
Our guests had a similar type day and ended up arriving quite a bit late.....which cancelled one of my favorite Christmas traditions of decorating cupcakes and singing Happy Birthday to Jesus...(though I hope to do it tomorrow).....and meant there was just enough time for us all to quickly feed dinner to all 7 kids, eat our own dinners and get everyone dressed for church.....talk about a whirlwind....
The cookies for the neighbors flopped completely.....
The bike we'd gotten for Malachi didn't work out so well.....and we likely need to get a different one....
The cake I made for the church Christmas Eve service got stepped on by one of the kids while getting out of the car.....smashing the icing decorations that I'd done.....
I finally managed to send out our Christmas newsletter and immediately after sending it realized that I'd put all the email addresses in the 'To" box instead of the 'BCC' box, meaning that I sent out everyone's email addresses....please forgive me if you were one of those people!....
And Anthony is now back at the Emergency Room with what seems to be an infection somewhere....he headed there as soon as we returned from church. He's getting some antibiotics right now, and hopefully will call (or be home) soon.....
So, this is not the way that Christmas was supposed to go by my standards....but all through the day, I've been thinking (as each new mishap has occurred)....this is EXACTLY how the Lord has wanted this day to go! This day is NOT about perfect food, guests arriving on time, traditions getting done, a clean house, gifts working out as planned, etc....This day IS about Jesus and that fact that HE came, HE gave, HE came to save, HE came to serve, HE came to die, HE came to save us from the punishment of our sins, HE-the King of Kings and Lord of Lords came to earth, lived a completely sinless life and died willingly on a cross for our sakes....and more than that....it was while we were sinners and not appreciating His sacrifice that He did this....it was out of Love, Grace and Mercy that HE chose to come to earth to live like one of us and to live among us.
Can you imagine having lived with God the Father in perfect unity for all of eternity and then coming to this earth to live among us? What a contrast! Yet He did it and He never sinned....not as a baby, as a toddler, a child, a teen, never!!!!
Anyway, not completely sure what my point is except that Christmas is often about expectations not being met...and mine sure weren't met this time around...but that's ok with me....there are other expectations that I have that have been exceeded beyond what I could ever imagine.....I never expected to be loved by God, yet He died for me. I never knew I even needed a Savior, yet He showed me that I did and that He had already saved me and redeemed me. I never expected to receive a gift of eternal life with God, yet He gave it willingly.
My unmet expectations of today are far out-shadowed and paled by the exceedingly great way that He has met needs that I didn't know I had until He'd already met them....all by His glorious grace.
I hope this post makes sense as it's now 11:30...and it's been a long day....but I just felt like writing this little bit....and again, if you received our newsletter with all the emails....I'm sorry, I feel pretty silly and bad about it....sure wish there was an 'unsend' button on those emails sometimes!
Hopefully I'll have an update on Anthony soon and will remember to post it here....
Merry Christmas to you! May you come to worship Jesus -- the Lord and Savior of mankind--all the more this year!
Erica